The spraining too much

I went to the jubilee of young people, to Rome, with the desire to reconnect with God. For the past month, I always believed in his presence with me but no longer looked for him. Psychologically, I was no longer able. In Lebanon, we only know misfortune, wars, crises of all kinds. I was breathless, I couldn’t pray anymore. As if I lost hope.

We started our pilgrimage in Sicily. There, I lived the life that was inaccessible to me in my country: I had fun, took photos … At the same time, I did not feel the presence of God, I remained outside of myself. One day, during a visit, I gave myself a sprained ankle. It was the test too much. Immediately, I thought, “Why me?” I was finally enjoying it! “

Then I said to myself: “Wait Clarita, Stop. To be sad, is that really what you want? ” So I spoke to God. I said to him, “Ok, I hurt myself, I’m going to work less well. Perhaps I can welcome this as an incitement to look more in me? “I had the choice: either stay in negativity, or say” yes “to the Lord and try to be a light for others, despite my weaknesses and my problems. It was this “yes” that I chose.

I then felt deep joy. An inner peace invaded me. Apparently, I was always the same but something had changed in me. The days that followed, I was able to take advantage of every moment. I saw the action of the Lord in others, in their smiles and attentions. I experienced the joy of fraternity. I believe that God has renewed my heart. He gave me the strength to move forward, smiling.

I am now sure that others can understand what I put on and that the test is just a step. I realized that in being happy, I became a testimony for my comrades. In Lebanon, I cannot change the situation in the country alone, but I can keep hope, continue to walk despite evil and war. Physically and mentally.

I came with a question: how to find hope? God gave me the answer: with a smile, an act of love. He also said to me, “I’m here, I answer you. But I want you to make the decision to come back to me. ”